HANDICAPPED

While pulling into a church parking lot to go inside and pray to God on my mind, a man called out to me, “are you handicapped?”

“No,” I answered, hastily with little time to waste…  Unsure why the question was posed with such emotion behind it.  Checking to see that I was parked next to, not in, a handicapped parking space.  A little self-righteousness in me thinking, “I would NEVER park in a space reserved for others.”

As I was praying, I realized the question is a valid one; I am handicapped.  I am broken with sin.  I am selfish and greedy.  I have lust in my heart.  I am crippled and stained.  I am sin challenged and saturated with ugliness.

I am in need of healing.  Lord God forgive me and heal me!  Over and over again I pray you would make me a righteous man worthy of the calling you have placed on my life.  Open my eyes to your purity and holiness, and let me reflect you in my life Lord… am am incapable of being all that you need me to be and I thank you for your Son Jesus Christ!  He is my physician and has healed my head and my heart – again and again.

Raise me up again and turn me into a walking, running, talking, thinking, acting testimony of your Grace, mercy and redemption.  I pray I would not waste one more minute of this precious life you have given me on insignificant and inconsequential matters, but instead transform me to become a beautiful, noble, righteous testament to my Lord, Jesus, whom I long to serve well.

I left the church, and as I pulled out I realize, I had parked in a handicapped spot.  Thank you Lord for the reminder, I am broken, crippled, and incapable without you.