DESTITUTE
“Jesus Christ’s one aim is to bring us back into oneness with God. The whole purpose of the redemption is to give back to man the original source of life, and in a regenerated man this means “Christ… formed in you.” Am I willing that the old disposition should be crucified with Christ? If I am, Jesus will take possession of me and baptize me into His life until I bear a strong family likeness to Him. It is a lonely path, a path of death, (to self) but it means ultimately being in the presence of Divinity? … The greatest spiritual blessing is the knowledge that we are destitute; until we get there He is powerless to help. He can do nothing for us if we think we are sufficient of ourselves we have to enter into his kingdom thought the door of destitution.” (O. Chambers)
Luke 9:23 Then he said to them all: “If anyone would come after me, he must deny himself and take up his cross daily and follow me. 24For whoever wants to save his life will lose it, but whoever loses his life for me will save it. 25What good is it for a man to gain the whole world, and yet lose or forfeit his very self?
The Original Source of life, living in me, just crucify myself and follow Him. Yet day after day I struggle with my thoughts. I want to be further along in this process than I am – in everything, the church plant, my spiritual life…. I want so much more out of myself! I get caught up in complaining and discouragement! I have no one to talk to about this stuff either, you cant share these things with the people you are leading! Negativity and venting are so vulgar and although it feels good in the moment, there is no lasting positive effect from it.
Lord God I need you so desperately! I am destitute and insufficient without you! Show me the Good Path! Forgive me for my bad attitude and fill me with the Joy of your Salvation! I so desperately want to share you with the World! Show me how to do it well. Lord surround me with Godly people that can help carry the weight of all of this and bond them to my wife and I.
